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I just got stopped and frisked one block away from my house because the cops thought I had a knife on me. They made me put my hands up in the middle of the sidewalk, as everyone walked by, and continued to check my many pockets. There were two white women walking next to me, to whom the cops didn’t say anything to of course. After an insincere and half-assed “sorry” the cops quickly got back in their car and left. One of the white women looked at me and asked if I was ok. I said to her “gurl, I’m fine, I’m brown.” and I just kept walking.
It is just hitting me how fucking humiliating that whole thing was. I’m also really mad that I didn’t react when it was all happening or even after the woman was asking me about it. But like actually, what could I have done? NOTHING. I, as a brown/black man, have nothing to defend myself aside from my words. Like what if I was carrying a knife for some reason. Like what would they have done then?
To be honest, I’m surprised it hasn’t happened to me before, as it’s happened to many of my friends. But I guess my reaction is normal. As a brown/black man, I always need to remember that white hegemony is my reality. I sometimes forget that because I am surrounded by so many beautiful people of color actively and/or subliminally challenging it.
There’s not much else I can say on the matter really. I guess just shout out to my beautiful community of PoC folx out here resisting and loving and supporting each other. Like I don’t know what I would do without yall.
it’s sad how often “I said to her ‘gurl, I’m fine, I’m brown.’ and I just kept walking,” is the story of being alive in this hostile word.
i get bummed that even if i improved my self esteem, i will always have bubbies too big for this sort of tropical fun
my old timey Jewish husband, Max Fleischer
Nina Simone singing “Who Knows Where the Time Goes”
thanks cm for telling me this exists
true beauty status: validated